I Want to Die But I Still Want to Eat Tteokbokki

The book continues Baek Sehee’s candid journey through the quiet, persistent weight of dysthymia—chronic, low-level depression. A sequel to the bestselling I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki, this follow-up delves deeper into Baek’s emotional landscape as she navigates life, therapy, and self-understanding.

A successful social media director in Seoul’s publishing world, Baek appears composed and capable. But beneath her calm exterior lie constant self-doubt, anxiety, and a harsh inner critic. In therapy, she begins to unpack her patterns—emotional habits that mask vulnerability and sabotage connection.

Through intimate, week-by-week transcripts of her sessions, Baek reflects on everything from people-pleasing and judgment to loneliness and the daily struggle for contentment. All the while, she clings to a simple joy: her craving for spicy, comforting tteokbokki.